Are you afraid of being alone?

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I need to accept the fact that I have no one. Like no one….

I was always alone (no friends). Everyone around me were already in schools getting into high school. And I use to barely speak a word. As i was born late to my parents.

What does it mean if I had a dream about my mom who passed 12 years ago waking up from her coma and asking for my dad? I have never had a dreams about her since she has been gone.

Someday my prayers, my tears, my faith , my hardwork everything is going to give me answers that am actually trying to find for.

I use to feel always alone. Always. Though I had people around me and the most pampering childhood. But no one of my age who would understand my emotions well and play the exact game I want to. In schools I was introvert. If i ever made a friend I use to get replaced cause I was not like others. I was very calm. I did all the fun around people who i considered to be mine only bestie.

Im trying to learn about me. The day isn't so far when I completely be fine with being my ownself. After all everyone is so tired to have me around. Nor am being myself anymore.

Can the right person make a narc want to change their ways? Is love that powerful? Has anyone seen this or experience it?

Yeah, yeah ik my outfit was straight out of fairytale.

Or maybe it did. But i didn't care. Or I was running from the fact that I have no one.

Though these days I'm being hyped up by <3 Poonam in my comment section. Grateful that my virtual people are best than offline people.

Gun owners, imagine if an attacker comes to your home and takes your gun to use against you before you had the chance to pick it up. Would you regret owning a gun?

Which is true . I have no one.

I was in hostel so it was all day studying hostel and not like pgs, nor Allen. It was like chaitnya and Narayana but some other college.

All the scars because some boy replaced me?

What are some reasons why people may fear strong men?

At times I often think that is it me?Who was once geet…. complete package of chatter box anyone can ever find.

And do I have complains? - no not anymore.

After continuously failing people laugh at me and my dreams.

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So grateful that atleast god listens to me. Without giving me advices of how and why…blah blah.. he just listens.

Understandable after all everyone is dealing with something or the other. That I have no idea about.

What is it that gives a man who is a submissive cock sucker his most pleasure?

I was complete emotionally dependent on him with my filtered version. He still doesn't know the real me( I was scared if I will loose him if I show him my real side).

I had no guts to make new friends. And then college happened.

I'm not looking for a boy to complete me.

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Anyways after all this I got so humble yet so quiet.

Thank you for being here.

Although am still on the journey to heal my self so that my broken parts don't cut innocent people.

I’m wondering about attachment and transference with the therapist and the idea of escape and fantasy? How much do you think your strong feelings, constant thoughts, desires to be with your therapist are a way to escape from your present life? I wonder if the transference serves another purpose than to show us our wounds and/or past experiences, but is a present coping strategy for managing what we don’t want to face (even if unconsciously) in the present—-current relationships, life circumstances, etc. Can anyone relate to this concept of escape in relation to their therapy relationship? How does this play out for you?

Anyways people leave. So did he. He was different for me but he did leave……not leave actually he replaced me at the end just like everyone. Even after knowing my scars. He concealed it with some cheap concealer( which were ofcourse his promises). Afterall it was cheap concealer. As time passes cheap concealer leaves patches on your face. Which does look like fresh scars which were highlighted.

Though now I'm sharing all to my bff(god). Although he watches me every sec and knows what exactly am doing.

As i was a kid.

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Then i slowly developed this self love when I didn't even know what self love is. I loved my company. But as I entered into high school people around me forced to believe that you need people around. As I was always bullied in my high school.

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Am I afraid of being alone? Not really…..Ok! well sometimes ofcourse when I see on quora people being hyped in comment section by someone' who has they back, instagram besties and many more.

Why am I sweating so much at night even though my room is really cold?

‘So I can't really expect someone to wipe my tears while they are bleeding internally”. - quote by me.

These days are not really great for me. I don't get the usual breakdowns like before. But I have this sudden ache in my heart and flashback of how people treated me since class 1. But i often crave for someone to listen to me. So that my head gets free.

I miss myself. But ik the real me…

If women see themselves as free, dignified, human beings just as good as men, can Trump hang it up and just lose in a landslide at last? How can men who like and respect women help improve womens' self-esteem?

This one question that left my eyes teary was.Will someone pick up the call if I call them mid night? - answer is sure shot (NO).

How immature…

The only song I want to dedicate is MAIN AGAR KAHOON..

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No no it was not only him. As i have been mentioning in my answers that I have been replaced many times since childhood. That kinda haunts me now but this fact never bothered me before.

I have beautiful people in my friends list offline and online. But its just that I don't get the love I want.

I had good people around me. But eventually people fade or maybe I was just with them because I wanted to feel the void of my emptiness.

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But my scars grew deeper & darker. So much so that I feel like no concealer nor any chemical peel treatment can fade them away.

Yesterday my heart cried alot but not my eyes. Cause my eyes have no tears left. Now only my heart aches and cries. I may seem very quiet and happy in the outer world. But my inner world has collapsed so bad that I'm still finding my pieces to fix my heart’s puzzle. But how could I? I have left my parts with the people who never really cared about me.

As I have already mentioned I was in relationship 🤡. So I use to feel he is going to be with me. Big big joke.

But sometimes I crave to be seen when I'm quiet externally and my head is full of thoughts which trying so hard to get out, but me shutting it down everytime cause no body cares.